And I thought I had issues...turns out I do.

Ok I’m seriously going to break someone…I am THAT pissed.

If you’re a guy you won’t know what I’m talking about if you’re a girl you’ll know EXACTLY how I feel. Now if you know me, like you like to delude yourself you do, then you know I HATE fake people. It’s just sad. It means your real self is too boring, you have no personality of your own and you have to resort to acting like someone else to fit in. What’s wrong with being yourself? If others don’t like it, that’s their own thing…you should be happy with yourself coz it’s YOUR life, the others are just spectators…one will go and another will replace them while you stay just as you are, fake or not. And as far as “love” goes you DEFINITLEY shouldn’t be fake. You’re tricking them into thinking you’re someone you’re not and when they find out (they ALWAYS do) you’ll be left alone.

Why the sudden blabber about fake people? Robyn Moodley that’s why…our resident school slut.  Yes I know once upon a time we were friends but that was BEFORE her boyfriend had “a thing” for me and she decided she wanted to “better” me and compete with me.  I bought Skullcandy she got Beats. I got an Ipod she got an Iphone. I got a tattoo she’s planning hers. I get better grades then her she studies her ass off to match mine. Thank God she doesn’t know what campus and what I’m studying…it’ll be a turf war….

But really now? REALLY? Do you not SEE how stupid you look? Or are you just too busy being fake and planning what next to try and “better” me with? Jeez the only person that’s better than me is ME you idiot! Why would you try to be my clone? I mean I’m not that much of a celebrity….or am I? Or are you just trying to blame me? I’ve stopped talking to your boyfriend…I’ve got my own thank you very much and besides the only reason he started liking me was because you used to have sex with your ex in the back of your church, (I kid you not stalkettes, angel’s advocate my ass! IN THE BACK OF THE CHURCH!) And suddenly when you get caught and your family is asked to leave that church you want to cry by ME? As if…

But this is the last straw … trying to “better” my acts is one thing but cutting your hair and dying it EXACTLY like mine? Trying to dress like me? Talk like me? No freaking way! And the excuse that “it’s not exact” is bullshit right there because blonde just makes it worse. You just look cheap. Or a skunk in disguise your choice...either way you’ll never be me so don’t even try….

But, honestly, do you think being like me will somehow turn you into a “good” person? Because seriously I’m not. I’m a grade A, first class, five star bitch…ask anyone who knows me well enough. Ask my friends ask my exes ask your freaking boyfriend. When I lose my temper everyone walks on eggshells! Only the people who are really close to me get the real me…Everyone else gets my mood swing. Makes you wonder, doesn’t it? Am I a monster who thinks it’s a good girl? Or am I a good girl with a monster in me?

ok...this is getting really old, really fast...

Now I'm sure everyone has voices in their head...me? I have an entire chorus line!

Mentalness aside I'm getting really pissed of...

This is for 2 types of people and them only

Firstly my hair.
 Lets get this straight, my favourite colour IS NOT red! Jeez If I get one more person telling me "I see you're just a typical girl from Chattsworth" I swear they're gonna end up crying or hating me forever I give a fudge (YES fudge...need to learn to stop swearing...even though this is mine just now I'll get a law suit or something...I mean i got kicked out of a class for saying "Damn" once...and this is university we're talking about!) and  no I'm not "some wannabe Hayley Williams". If I wanted to be I bet I could but that's not me I'll listen to music but I wont play it. I did once. I modeled once too. That doesn't make me a beauty queen nor does it make me a "wannabe rockstar" it makes me me. I left because I don't like attention or having to actually follow a diet or being ogled at by some random with his girlfriends evil eye in tow. I stopped because I'm too restless to stay in one place for a long time and continually practice to perfect...it'll drive me INSANE! well, insane-er...but back to my venting, yes I have red tips on my hair and no its not something I'd expect you to understand...I mean if Nicki Minaj can try and literally turn herself into a black barbie and get implants in her ass and her hips and God knows where else botox and bleached skin and all that fake stuff, literally dye her hair completely blonde (Is that even her hair or another wig?) and wear handkerchiefs why the hell can't i dye the tips of my hair red? and why on earth are you even worried? I'm sure you must have your own hair or wig or weave or whatever else....worry about your own.


Secondly my tattoo
its a yin-yang symbol wrapped in tribal..not even my design, courtesy of google,but that's beside the point. I wouldn't tattoo something permanently on my body unless it had some meaning to me. do you know what it means? if you don't here it is, plain and simple,

Yin Yang is the principle of natural and complementary forces, patterns and things that depend on one another and do not make sense on their own.These are opposites that fit together seamlessly and work in perfect harmony. This can be seen very clearly in the symbol: the dark area contains a spot of light, and vice-versa, and the two opposites are intertwined and bound together within the unifying circle.Yin and yang are not static, the balance ebbs and flows between them - this is implied in the flowing curve where they meet.

and that's precisely the way I live my life, the way I am so I had it tattooed on me. On my right shoulder to be exact. So why do you want to question what I put on my body? and whether I show it or not? go get your own life and stop worrying about mine..